乞衣

已經再接受唔到自己好似乞衣咁討人愛.
已經再接受唔到自己失去自我...
欲哭無淚.
지은話jerks 問我y?? 只有你才可以明白我...
一個無人明白嘅理由, 真係一個理由嗎???
估唔到.."deadline已超愈"估唔到你今日再去提我...
用文字把成個story講出嚟...睇返...真係..不知所謂.
好在身邊好姊妹不斷安慰, 唔知咩事都好, 都講,你決定d咩都好, 我都支持你..好開心有你...
另一好姊妹引用自己金句.. thanks !! 心情好好多了...
好在有你地4個.^^
i love you!!!!
相信如果今日我喺香港, 會陪我ktv, 陪我飲飲飲...陪我爆喊, 陪我.....一晚嗎???

明顯..

好明顯?班主任問我發生咩事...見我lee排成日好憂心樣子...睇到個sms 好開心, 因為佢都好鍚好. ^^
今日去博物館, 好好笑, miss知我地成班無興趣行, 而咁啱我地個個話肚餓,跟住佢就問我地飲唔飲杯茶... 就係咁我地用左行博物館嘅時間去high tea,佢仲好nice請我地全班添...^^
今日又有個同學仔問我係咪唔開心...話見我近排都好似唔開心咁...oh..)00(
原來我都幾無性格, 人地用1日全日send sms比我, 我已經心軟了...可能因為...芝恩所講..hahah..

welcome

感覺不一樣,因為思上接不上..
但開心因為你回來我身邊, 雖然我深信見面依然不多..可能等於1...但感覺到你存在...最少好似尋晚, 我轍夜難眠,直到唔知幾點,你回來...我終於忍不了....
半個月嗎?? 在外我努力表現我唔mind...唔緊,唔要...但原來,本性真係好難改, 縱使點說服自己唔mind, 唔緊,唔要..原來說服自己係好難.baby都以為我無問題, 因為我好努力講, 好嬲好嬲...無講好唔開心..忍!! 唔想比人知我係弱者
"唉"住瞓時...我軟弱了..狂喊...眼淚不停流了...
是時候找事情去寄託, 忘記..
時間係最好治療?? 大概吧...
究竟我enjoy 邊種生活??野孩子?? 乖學生??
總覺得枕邊人好快又會消失....的感覺好強烈...
可能因為尋晚個夢..

令自己忙

不知幾時, 成日皺起眉頭,皺到好攰...
好多事, 不可再逃避了..一定要面對, 苦惱中
"crazy" ..苦惱中
屋企, 苦惱中
諗人地諗咩, 苦惱中...
kli 苦惱中...
令自己可以援沖一陣...就係令自己忙...
今日做out guide, 好想搵返自信, 努力揸咪,揸足全程---> result: even 幾小時, 客人同你握手, 拍手掌...好開心..有返成功感...但永遠去duty free會咁驚...
connie 屋企食飯...心情down...因為自己心情...但努力act!
去史屋企拎千千比肥佬.
早上8點出門口到晚上10點幾先到home..好攰...
望著電話...10萬個唔明白...

top secret!

終於我地可以相聚了...近期大家各有各忙,都沒想到好好傾計, 又沒有暢飲...終於可以一次做哂了 ^^
最深嘅秘密只有對方知,只有可同對方講, 不能同其他人講...也沒有膽量同其他人講, 同其他人呻...因為大家都是同一類, 好似只有我明你, 只有你明我咁...講嘅時候其實應該抱以罪惡感的心情...亦應叫對方stop, 但大家不其然會講我明你...好似比自己心靈上安慰咁,所以大家都同對方講"小心d"...hahahaha
都似好free...
一齊睇恐怖片, 點知好似睇鹹片,笑片,點知到最尾...真係好恐怖...2個人攬住張被狂嗌, 隔離屋唔知以前lee度有命案..haha...通屋走, 真係好好笑, 好似小學雞
終於cfm了,cfm了.期待已久嘅travelling!!!!! confirm 了...坐cx
諗起已超開心, 好想好想好想快d到...1石2鳥之旅...hahaha
今朝5:50分起身, 真係好enjoy 坐車時傾計嘅感覺,7:30到學校了...9點上堂, 早個半鐘到...買飯盒去第2個課室食. 傾計...haha..怕被第2 d老師見到,仲諗定我點解坐佢車, haha 佢媽咪嘅家姐嘅cousin, hahah
15小時 超enjoy 嘅相處方式, 突然想起,香港嘅好姊妹們...食個飯傾個計又幾個鐘...haha 其實我真係要求好簡單...

finsihed

自問自己做得唔好, 自問點解sherman 呀mi 得自己唔得...反問好多次. 夜晚瞓得唔夠好, 好在有凱琳教我點starting點講, 聽sherman sell 一次, 先捉到方向^.^ 寺試, 但唔太開心係都係收唔到客...真係有一種浪費機票嘅感覺...唔開心,.夜晚瞓得好差好差...
真係好開心, 3姊妹,兄弟一齊同場工作,點估都估唔到無做永安之後竟然會係喺咁嘅情況下工作, 同第2間公司一次慶祝生日...
做左3日之後, 原來我太耐無返工,以前出團嘅拍力,無哂...唔知點解...仲要怯場, 無用豬.

最後...不歡回韓, 因為自己一句出左收唔返嘅說話,hurt到好朋友...好內疚...究竟...我應該...???

hard feeling

愈嚟愈唔了解對方了..有感極度不重視嘅感覺...我是白痴嗎??? 是你隻寵物嗎?? 鍾意點就點?? 不知所謂~~~ 討厭
不重視嘅關係, 要唔要也罷...
不受尊重嘅關係, 放罷了..

thanks

好開心, 因為我依然可以令對方喊, 令對方笑,依然有存在價值 ~~~
每次嘈完之後, 破冰之後, 開心返, 真係縱使其他人安慰我都好.個心好痛...(hehe or一殺哪開心)
感恩,因為喺對方人生入面,將來有我個名存在...
好鍚我, 全銀河都知...
我真係一個好幸福嘅人...^^
所以我.......

突然

第一次上上下堂, 眼淚直流...
我totally 被攻破了...
突然想起10多年前rachel事件...我好驚再嚟一次...因為今次一定更傷....我怕受不起...
係我問題嗎?? 係我做得唔夠好嗎? 係我處理唔好嗎??係我唔識體諒人嗎?? 係我不夠細心??係我仲未成熟??定係已經被討厭????被放棄??? 好辛苦...我唔想又發生...
我可以做咩去"配合"??

only one

因為一d事, 好唔開心...突然覺得sharing對象係無咁...搵人陪, 係無嘅...究竟我在做什麼??? 有人有心無力想幫我, 我係看得出嘅..但你要我等到幾時?? delay delay 再delay..我已經習慣了嗎??或者, 我本身因為怕第3次再發生不敢再比期望朋友比較好???不!應該講,我接受到無止境的等待嗎嗎?? 倚靠好像已失去了...我應該點?? 我唔想好似好友咁...最後係討厭lee個地方...快樂還有嗎?? 11月真的可以有嗎??可以陪我嗎???

今晚同朋友出外, 我學識了收藏自己, 或者對方跟本只是表到唔表面嘅朋友圈吧...幾唔開心, 今日都收埋哂...但都幾辛苦...可能今次一個人都無講...even baby都無講...

是夜收到一個令我開心嘅人電話, "你後悔嗎??" "你想點???"好開心你仍關心我..仲問我洗唔洗做中間人...

講清楚可能係我嘅堅持...又攤哂出嚟講, 你嘅答案, 我估唔到...在你立場看, 其實你都幾可憐...在外嘅人,包括我...都覺得你好慘...我是否要轉變下呢?? 行出一步嗎??? 究竟我諗緊咩???

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由這一分鐘開始計起　春風秋雨間
限我對你以半年時間　慢慢的心淡
付清賬單　平靜的對你熱度退減
一天一點　傷心過這一百數十晚
大概也夠我　送我來回地獄又折返人間
春天分手　秋天會習慣　苦沖開了便淡

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上左心嘅事真係放唔低, 無時無刻都想起...有D過左火咁..點算???

今日終於考左辯論了...真係好辛苦LEE 個EXAM, 為左LEE個EXAM 幾多晚無咩點瞓, 辛苦過幫朋友做PAPER WORK...

UNFORGETTABLE MOMENT...

^^ waiting for u

真係比同性戀搞到我就死....
真係好hard 嘅exam..同埋發現, 原來開學之後除左第一個禮拜無exam之外..個個禮拜都有考試. 唔係測驗..真係辛苦左..好似填鴨式咁...真係好辛苦..未試過要上網搵料...由尋日早上7點搞到今朝4點, 當然中間有做下其他事...但都唔影響我時間...真係好大壓力咁..雖然短間3,4個鐘瞓..但個腦都係我個同性戀事...真係好煩..諗到中文點寫又唔識用韓文點講, 人工繁殖?? 中文都要諗個字點寫呀...真係好suffer.

因為一個人記在心內, 唔開心左...同baby呻, 愈呻愈開心..relax左...
thanks alot!!! u are my best!!!
因為有d事不能同其他人講,所以你係最佳人選了...
又或者..我地太似了....
好突然對方會問 :"點解佢會咁講..."
聽完心有戚戚然...
不過整晚過程真係好relax...i like it
i love you!!!

i hate kli

真係未試過咁勤力...由朝早7點到而家...都係韓文韓文再韓文...
人地唔知以前我想拎獎學金...
真係好想死..好難,好煩...
升左上lvl 4 真係好似無哂d 私人時間, 睇電視又無, 行街?? 星期五啦...傾電話都唔可以傾耐...瞓教都係韓文...
苦中一點甜, 那邊箱嘅你都忙到就死....hahaha , i am mean... ^^

原來可以

一直以為自己真係要人照顧嘅人, 唔識獨自生活...同屋由十月頭先旅行到而家返香港工作, 估唔到大個月了. 初頭以為自己真係唔可以...原來我100% ok架, 同埋,都幾enjoy一個人生活, 當然唔洗諗咁多嘢係main point, 但夜晚都有少少悶. 好在而家lvl4, 真係忙到ok啦...都無咩free time 諗其他嘢...加上而家crystal 同connie 又一齊返學, 放學又一齊...夜間又同hk d fd 傾下電話, 又同baby text 下, 幾開心...同埋原來我都幾鍾意物質享受...一間千尺大屋, 一個人...真係好ENJOY!! 好鍾意獨自在家嘅感覺...寧靜嘅時間就會諗下嘢. 幾好!! 不俗不俗~~~
不過LEE排一靜就諗起旅行, 好想好想好想今次真係去到...成日諗去邊好...但其實去邊都無所謂, 因為目標名確, SAME STYLE. EVEN 去香港, 我都一定會唔理其他, SMS都唔覆, 去ENJOY OUR TRIP...一定唔悶姐, 好想好想好想介紹自己最FD嘅FD一齊飲,一齊玩. ^^ 真係好期呀~~~~

heaven and hell

因為一位朋友無理取鬧, 變相我更加run 向愛錫我嘅您...多謝你always stay my side...
朋友雖然利用就一定架啦, 但同時都係要嚟鍚同保護, 發脾氣..煩請向無謂人發吧...真係嬲...朋友在身邊不斷說calm down calm down ...因為咁..我更加覺得你對我好重要...
人係犯賤, 縱使無錯...但唔想關係每況愈下, 唯有一方say sorry...even 我唔知我點解要咁..有時諗唔通lee d 叫命運啩...
易受人影響係我charactor, 但lee part 我好堅持...even 你都係想我開心...但...只可以講, 你知我性格吧...所以只有請你繼續做我嘅聆聽者吧...
有時在想..壓力令人透不過氣, 我都好心痛...好唔開心...因為我可以做咩???我真係唔知...

crazy

after arr korea, until now still not yet have any drinks >.<
i am waiting our drinking night!!!
tonight i have dinner with sonnie, sherming , bryan, snoopy.. soju , whiskey, beer...chi sin...
i think i am not young... today ...i die.

stress

recently i feel very hard.. i got stress a lot!!!
what i do?? give up or...???
lucily, i have such a goooooood fd like u, just a topic. go travel, we are very happy and exciting... ^^
i am really looking forward our trip...any place is ok for us. just sleep and drink , no need to walk ...^^
when i think of it... all the stress will go away
thanks

용기가 나다

遲定早, 一定會攤出嚟講...
同當時人講哂...好似好左dd.. 我希望無side effect...otherwise我都唔知點算好...
多謝你send text 鼓勵我...
"try your best to convince yourself to accept all the things she did"
"make yourself happy"
"try your best and support you always"
I LOVE YOU
...
唔知我將我心情講哂之後,對方點..但最少我減輕dd 吧..
pls time goes by

i lose

原來最好嘅解決方法就係...扮無事...即係逃避???
ok, fine!!!

停一停,諗一諗...

晚晚發惡夢...
原來仲發埋開口夢...第2朝只係同我講:"你發開口夢wor...講左xxxx" 但好好的,你無問我咩事...慶幸地, 最down lee2日有你陪...真係好朋友
打左一大編essay...竟然得一句敷衍回答...我可以點??? 真係可以當無事??對方可唔可在我角度諗???
已經多次多次同自己講:" 停一停, 諗一諗, 其實事件又唔係大吖只要你唔在乎對方的話......"但..如果係可以做到對任何人,包括姊妹, 屋企人...都dont care 的話, 咁我而家咪無事..."
啊...辛苦...
係咪要比時間自己去接受一切???

韓國最好嘅心理醫生...

今日終於搵左人幫我check我嘅事了...有人share左d 舒服左d..
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是夜喺你百忙之中抽空聽我錄音, I FEEL SORRY...我知對方忙死了...
短短嘅時間終於1 5 1 10 講哂所有屈喺心入面嘅事了...你一句sammy...SORRY..之後一段嘢..我終於忍唔住嚎哭了...lee幾日真係好辛苦...我真係好辛苦...咩都無了..尊嚴都無...真係好辛苦....
每一晚凌晨時間就開始咁...真係好驚...好驚...好驚再有下次.
開心嘅0係你每一句都令我feel better...如果而家你喺我面前, 我估我一定攪住你狂喊...
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好開心你之前到今日講左咁多次"好開心可以再見我..." 原來驚我返左去唔再返嚟...聽到真係好感動...多謝你...

惡夢

真係好辛苦..其實係咪做錯咩?? lee幾日一係瞓唔到, 一係就發惡夢...放過我啦, 我就顛架啦..
收到report了...點解唔開心嘅事係都要跟住我wor...我其實無嘢好架...跟過第2個啦...我受夠啦..我應該返hk睇醫生好? skip 1 個term?? 11月返去蛇一蛇???定喺韓國睇?? 好煩...
一到夜晚就好似上身咁..好不安...真係好辛苦..又唔可以同人呻...
我就快頂唔住了...

心痛

因為一件放在心之小事而引發一句說話令人心痛的大事.., 令我流了無盡眼淚, 最後暈倒...
我還是未平靜...
心仍然很痛...

加油b加油b媽

不得了，不得了...日子好似唔夠咁...已經咁多日留港，活動日子由5號start，已經唔係咁重覆見，已經超full了...大單.... 仲有一堆未覆...點算？！？！ 望住schedule，唔知點好...
function又話去澳門聯誼，真係好吸引...但...ㅠ.ㅠ
決定25號回韓！機票太貴同好full啦~ 無奈中秋要喺嗰邊過×.×
原來當一個主婦真係唔容易，媽咪真係好偉大...由今朝一早起到夜晚瞓一
刻，真係未停過，只係下午，偷到2個幾鍾出嚟我free， meet小姚去左輕談淺酌...但我身體真係好差..even飲左2杯，但血壓無加不特止，上壓仲要得94..真係好弱...心跳得78，痴線㗎！！唔怪之得lee幾日成日暈暈地啦！
哥哥終於返嚟了，減輕我dd，同定d了...好開心佢fb寫嗰段，突然覺得得到了認同...dd輕飄飄
見到媽咪逐步好d，都放心d，辛苦d都值㗎
真係好攰呀，跌哂watt了！

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今次返香港心情好凝重，好擔心，成晚無瞓過，落機已收到je嘅窩心慰問，狂問我r u ok? 叫我喺媽咪面前忍住唔好喊，同佢傾左一陣已眼濕濕，眼淺嘅我一陣點算？好在winnie啪左我針，同我講左都幾嚴重，有定心理準備...返到去一望...omg，忍住，死忍!借d意話去搵姨媽，一見到姨媽，即忍唔住狂喊!!!見到佢咁，第一次好驚失去佢，我寧願意外嗰個係我！！下午返到屋企，即展開我五個幾六個鐘嘅執屋大清理行動，尋日602今日3樓a,我估我興趣應該係打掃...
成日個心都好悶悶不樂，好在由落機一刻好多好友都問候我，安慰我，好在我考完試可以話返嚟就返嚟咋，如果唔係一個人喺嗰邊朋友唔多，無人陪點算，真係好彩，最少返到嚟，心靈上有好友們sharing。今日等左成日，朋友應該生意上好忙，一個慰問都無，人就係咁，你愈有盼望，就會又一次失望，愈嚟愈唔明佢，不過我估對方都會想唔明我，因我地對朋友方式太差異了，所以...算啦，不過，人就係咁一方面個心會講算啦，放棄佢啦，而家你地都唔同步伐，人地都唔重視你內心，算啦...但一方面就等待對方sms...因為自己仲係好重視對方，好希望有日佢會好似以前初相識時咁care你感受，而唔係嗰d富家子弟屋企咁，d家長只會比錢去滿足子女，但唔理對方心情...有時諗我要人地理解自己感受同心情，其實係咪有d車始，心情好茅盾，lee d 咪犯濺囉...
je講得啱，唔好理real fd or not，lee一刻照顧媽咪係最重要！！！
是夜執屋到九點幾，跟住再煮嘢食比太后，又要等佢食完，再同佢沖涼，所講已經要十二點零嘅事...終於明白d媽咪照顧子女係幾辛苦嘅一件事...因為真係好攰好攰...自己連晚飯都唔想食，攰到要瞓 。

LOVE YJE

好神奇, 其實對方都唔係點同我相見多...但每日都有SMS... 有HEART... 令我知我不是一個人, 是你令我學會獨立思考, 其他好友都沒知我的...你直接同我講...才令我學會"想", "選擇"與"拒絕"....
我想在韓國最失意時, 幸好有你支持, 好WARM 好SWEET嘅說話, EVEN 有D嘢我知是韓國人STYLE, 但我BUY 你了....
而家有事時, 我竟然第一個想起你, 而你都因為此而好開心...証明...你喺我心目中係好重要...或者咁講, 因為TIMING 問題.... 我覺得你好似好嘅曙光...
老實的..因為你爽約我確實有唔開心, 但....可能就係"誠意"LEE2個字, 咩都唔記得了....
嚟韓國最大得著, 應該係...認識你.

totally...upset

唔知從幾時起, 同你已經有好大隔膜了...漸漸地...退出對方的世界了...
我倚靠的人已經唔再係你了...一次又一次嘅驚喜..已經再接受唔到了...我想我地關係已經好明確了...問題所在已好確定了....是我接受唔到而選擇此關係....
做朋友只想開心...但...
做朋友應係咁嗎??? 是我過份要求嗎??
如果是...咁.,..我真係唔配做你朋友...
朋友是....???
9個月, 是一個好好的體驗...
令我成長,
令我不再倚賴任何人,
令我獨立,
令我.......

comfortable

或者想開了, 又或者身邊人開解SHARING. 心情好好了. 可以瞓同食了...^^

ALWAYS B WITH U

我知唔可以成日見...因為你忙, 我理解嘅, 但我好希望你會知..我 ALWAYS BE WITH U
I LOVE YOU...
因為你對我嚟講真係好特別...

體會

好似瞓醒左咁..係你每日同我講我應該點定咩...我好似揾返自已咁....
原來我一直....SORRY!!!!
尋晚SEND 左個SMS比好姊妹, 可能對方知我心情...我一句你下團落嚟丫, 平日講LEE 句只會比人小爆....對方竟然無小我..... 多謝你.....好在前幾日聽我錄音...對方留嘅其中一個錄音....我好感動...忍唔住喊出嚟....多謝你...I FEEL GUILTY TOＵSORRY...
可能已諗通了..終於都瞓到OVER 4HRS啦....
THANKS!!!
我真係好多REAL FRIEND, IMPORTANT FRIEND..
I LOVE YOU!!

try to concentrate other..

요즘 스트레스가 많이 쌓여서, 불면증을 났어요...너무 힘들어...어떻게해야해??? 수면제가 어디에 살 수 있어???? 도와 주세요...

exit

i realy want to find a exit..i think for u and me is a better method to solve betwwen us problem..now we both are not happy,u feel suffer and i feel hard... then it's meaningless.. i think i really need to give up sth....i have my own life... and i need to create my future...i am a simple human, i just want a happy life... y i am always unhappy? y u always hurt me and i  hurt u???it's a big problem that we need to solve...i don't want my all babiess worry i....pls....
i need to wake up... i think..dont dream any more again...
yesterday thank you u3 next to me....im glad that i have u3...
what the meaning of friendship?? is it send sms?? is it talked phone?? is it i need to write a report?? is it occupied??is it control???in this point , i am very confused....but i confirm i have a lots of real best friends..
sorry...i drank alot...
i just can say sorry....
i let u disappointed again , cos i am useless.... i can't selfish !!
because i still love u...

why

why these bad thingssss together coming?? i can't afford it.. help...
yesterday i receive my mom called she said she sicked, so didnt call me this few days.... how come i dont sense it?? how come i dont take care her?? how come i selfish to go korea, dont take care her...i feel guilty and sorry....
and.....she send me a long long long message... i cried a whole night...i am sorry....i don't know what can i do for you...
i thought a whole night...finally i say goodbye to u, we never meet!!!! i m very angry of it...i feel upset...but why 2 mins later u ask me what happen?? i don't want to say.,. how come u always force me?? i dont' want to hurt u or u hurt me anymore... i feel tired. i feel hard and suffer...what can i do?? i need to think of it....
baby,  thanks....i get your support alaready enough!!! love u

沿途有你.

very glad that i have many many real good friend best friend in my life, known me i am sad, upset, and send me sms " if u need to talk , call me ", " I STAND WITH YOU",? i feel so WARM all of sudden listen by u , u never said your feeling, but it's the first time u talk about it... i dont know what i can do....
leave leave leave stop stop stop...\
this is the first time u talk about your feeling, i really known how  u love me, dont want me get any hurt , want me happy , want me smile, But... many things i can't control... the first step i turn left already , i can't turn right on the next...i can independent, i can live alone, i can take care myself, but many things let me  i can't do it  , i really can;'t control all the things , i can't selfish to decided it.. even if i know my life just belongs to me,i love you baby...your sms let me know i still alive , i still get warm, someone realy love me,
thanks baby u daily stay with me, wanna spend time on me, talk to me, known i have a great stress, known i can't sleep many nights, all of this i know, cos i saw your eyes when u look at me..i can get it...yhank you final answer I already got it, little bit disappointed... cos of selfish?! i don't know now...did i change or ...but now i cfm this moment we can't back to before. even u say u are trouble too, ....anyway.. i am ok,
i am sorrry let uuuu worried  everyday...i am very lucky that i can meet u in my life!

ashhhhh

i feel scare, feel terrible, ...i don't want...
7 times "leave" .....
many times "stop"
opssssss

lose myself

what am i doing now??
heaven and hell...u always give me...i can't bear it anymore... i am human, i have feeling...pls , pls care my feeling... ashhhhhhhhh.... very hard.. it's very hard.. i am so suffered... am i blind?? how come uuuuuuu can feel it, i can't???
i can't afford any more...
i can't ....

玩DIVING時間又到了

需要一個人的時間~~~
需要聽嘈吵的音樂~~~
需要一個空間~~~
需要你.
似乎我已經唔可以BEAR 到了??

我知好友好擔心我...因為尋日潛水成日, 今日對方嘅眼神已完全感受到, 捉住我隻手時, 我FEEL 到溫暖...好開心你體亮我無故心情差, 唔迫我... 只陪我.STAND BY ME...

每個人都有情緒, 唔係咩都有原因 "啪針"唔代表我想講. 只不過想避免不必要嘅小心眼而引起嘅戰爭...

每個人都應有心靈上嘅空間...

唔通人, 環境一有轉變時...人都會變???

係我思想獨立左定....?? 我真係STUPID!

WTF

11點碌左上床瞓...你老闆,  1 點都瞓唔到...2點又醒, 3點又醒, 4點又....而家打咭咩?? 火都嚟..真係好炆呀.~~~天氣?? 心情??? 壓力??? 讀書?? 時間?? 敏感?? 樣樣???SHIT!!!!

YOU ARE THE ONE

LEE排好多突然....
突然好想聽你把聲, 好想你氹我....多謝你...
你一句比任何人10句都嚟得重要~~~
另一個你...比誰更重要...I REMEMBER YOU, I KNOW U STAY WITH ME
And I know that I'll be strong enough 'cause I know I'll always have your love
I can take the words and never feel it .They'll never see me cry
The only thing that can touch me is you
And to lose you is the one pain that I know I'd not survive
I guess I should be afraid to say How Vulnerable I am
I Love You
SORRY for let me diving today...let u worry..i am sorry!

JUST THE WAY U ARE

第一次,真係第一次用心去親自整一樣從未整個嘅嘢食, 蛋包飯...唔知啱唔啱對方口味呢?? 唔知好唔好食呢??唔知我鍾意嘅材料對方鍾意嗎??? 既擔心又緊張...一早6點起身去煮...之前睇左好多次INTERNET, 又問個D好朋友意見...哈哈..雖然個樣對方用" 好可愛但點解嬲嘅樣?" HAHAHAHA,...FEED BACK 係ENJOY 嘅, 唔知係空話定真..不過真係好開心..
好想再整其他嘢食....^^
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LEE排大家都好忙, 唔可以成日見...>..<  不過都盡量抽時間去比對方, 真係好開心,.. 下個WEEK 會好D. 大家都應該無咁忙...^^ 期待中~~~~
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有你陪我, SHARING WITH MY WORRIES, MY UNHAPPY, MY HAPPY, MY ALL... 2小時真係太少啦...不過我都唔好意思...要你聽咁悶嘅事...^^...
都唔知第幾日, 每日只瞓幾個鐘, 仲要狂發夢...你見到我都忍唔住講幾次.你個樣好攰. 我知呀, 可以點?? 比粒安眠藥我吧..比我一個24小時唔發夢瞓, 可以嗎???真係好辛苦~~~
日日起身好似係準備瞓咁...攰到不得了...點好~????
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STRESS?? 可唔可以帶我去一個RELAX嘅地方???

short holiday!!!

10幾日嘅HOLIDAY又完了...EVEN 好短, 但超ENJOY!!!!
近幾次LANDING都係LAURENT 接...真係好好好朋友 ^^
第一日去做VISA. WTF..連做幾次都被BAND.. 火都嚟..真係唔想再去做LEE個VISA 囉..我以為自己去左美國呀..SHIT!!!!
好在有人氹返, 車我周圍去..去食辣雞煲, 再去赤柱海邊傾計...真係好開心. 都係你對我最好 ^^
第2日... 有d失望, 之前又講到點都出席..final 放飛機...真係好憎...咁一早唔好應承人啦...火都嚟~ family dinner...warm family.. 只有屋企人無隔夜仇...不過好funny,maybe 上次住matt matt到...今次好多人問我住邊?? 哈哈...其實香港先係我基地..even 我唔想..但lee個係改唔到..不過估唔到媽咪last1日同我講下次返嚟住酒店好d...咁如果我第時回流...咁住邊??是夜karaoke ,好多謝班姊妹同兄弟 ...因為我真係好想講. 但唔講得...哈哈.. 只有baby understood me!!! 喊左好耐好耐..飲左好多,但都唔識醉. ^^
第3日,同媽咪去左milk home玩, 之後再去cd俾面派對dinner...lee班真係fd... 永遠都係,話當年係最開心. ^^ 笑左成晚~~~
第4日, 約左姊妹姣婆食飯飲嘢...真係有傾不盡嘅計~~~
第5日, 約左細路去ocean park..哈哈,..佢等左幾個月了..佢今日好開心, 竟然情侶裝...我最憎嘅行為...OOOPSSSS..之後車左我去SUPER上貨.去寄,再車我去銅鑼灣買衫, 然後再車我去鯉景灣解散...知道咩叫PRINCESS...真係不知足...仲要比較..比嚟做咩...都無可能...唉~~是夜同好姊妹ZOME 飲嘢...無所不談....真係好FREE!!!!係喺韓國受瞓之成果定咩??? 竟然飲幾杯都無事...HAHA..堅呀!
第6日, 終於同我班青梅竹馬嘅好姊妹玩腦部TRAINING...真係好攰, 不過好開心...真係...雖然大家唔係零之透明度, 但真係SUPER ENJOY!!!!
第7日去澳門去清邁5天. WHAT A WONDERFUL TRIP... SUPER RELAX AND ENJOY THE FOOD!!!!! 3姊妹第2次出TRIP. 今次加埋MATT 同SARA, 好FRESH 嘅組合, 對於我來說...不過估唔到咁MATCH 咁開心, 最少可能大家都係TL 出生, 本身唔要趕..所以...ELEPHANT CAMP 我地仲玩埋SHORT CUT ITIN..HAHAHAHAHA...真係好好笑...遲去早返..餐都CUT ..HAHAH
5日可數之行程, MASSAGE, THAI BOXING AND ELEPHANT CAMP..日日食好嘢, 食7咁食..成枱都係..但係食哂WOR...真係不得了...HAHAHA SPECIAL THANKS SHERMAN MATT ..因為HOTEL 真係不得了嘅靚, RELAX...可以再STAY多幾日無ITIN 都得呀~~~
下次返..應該係9月了...真係好想同介紹自己D FRIED 比我MISS 識...玩舍顛, 飲個痛快...^^

I LOVE YOU!!!!

好努力為9月有1個月左右嘅假作PLANNING. GUIDE又好, 定TL都好, PERPARE 左先...好努力寫份RESUME..對上嗰次寫應該係 10 年前..真係唔知點寫...寫到隻眼@@...


尋晚同好朋友TEXT到3點幾4點, 我真係好鍾意TEXTING...可能我比你嘅意見,你都好驚訝, 冷血?? 我認架! SPECIALLY 過左嚟之後..生活唔同, 好多嘢係迫出嚟嘅~~ 好多嘢都已經識得放, 應就快放..唔應放嘅唔放...相信?? 人與人之間好多時會講個信字...但人愈大, 就知好多嘢會隨時改...不能作準, 不能盡信...因會有 "AMENDMENT" 所以愈來愈發覺唔上心, 會開心 ^^


問我知唔知點解你會愛我, 因為我顛同傻, 好多嘢似...但我就除LEE D之外, 就係你喺一個SPECIAL嘅情況下都WILLING 付出時間比我, 陪我, 唔MIND 做D咩, 只要SPEND TIME ON ME 就開心, "見你開心, 我就開心" 老實講今時今日有幾多個好朋友會咁同你講, 或你會真正感受到"你快樂,所以我快樂" 你比我知我唔係一個人, 我唔悶, 我唔寂寞...仲FEEL 好WARM...因為咁. 我都願意比哂所有我可以為你做嘅事比你.
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一早同你講擔心之事後, 同你講笑, 不過先煮個麵食先..竟然又再叫我食好D, 唔好食麵, 只是講笑,如果我地住得近, 我會常常上你家食飯..點知你..一句: 請住我老家...雖然我緊係唔會...但真係好窩心, 每樣嘢都令人開心, 感溫暖...I LOVE YOU~

有時諗大家都係咁嘅CASE,你仲堅添啦, HOW COME 處理方式咁大分別?? 真搞不清, 有時想大家對對方嘅想法已不同, 已經唔想SPEND TIME 喺對方到??? 我明有時有D事, HURT了底線之後係無得返回頭, LEE句我係完全明白同感受到....ANYWAY, 而家同以前係不=


LEE排日記日日都提你...因為日日我地都有經歷...別人角度只是微不足道...但對於我同你...真係好開心嘅事..一句FUCK! 一句I LOVE U, 都已經好唔同...

2年前, 我嗰時咀邊都是一個好友的名字...因為只要我認為你是值得交的, 我會付出一切, 全程投入ADDICTED TO...旁人看到時會說什麼" 全世界,現在眼中只有她" ...只會說LEE D 說話, 比面色你睇..妒嫉 呷醋...但佢地唔知對方為我付出幾多, 所以我先會咁...或者佢地知我要嘅係咩朋友, 如果明我嘅人, 會知點解, 唔會問點解, 或許他們曾經同我有LEE一段經歷, 會明白我同理解我..

我真係會好珍惜對方, 只要對方比我知佢都係珍惜我..

너 만큼 사랑한 사람은 없다

當一上網睇左咩GRADE時...真係有唔開心...仲要真係好唔開心..因為...今次同上次唔同, 我真係努力, 同埋지은又幫我補習...連CRYSTAL都話估唔到我係會溫書嘅人...但真係估唔到成績我係唔理想...4個人4個反應...
1: 點解?? 狂問點解...由於我太了解LEE個人, 知佢係一個唔安慰到人嘅人, 但..心情差嘅時候..真係好炆...所以收線吧...我想靜下...但最後嘅係...被認為我又發小姐脾氣...算啦..對方要每次咁諗我都已經無辦法了...唔想再係LEE個範圍再解釋...
2: 令我發埋脾氣...一句"好有毅加WOR最近...." 忍唔住講" 夠啦! 想點呀!" 火嘅情度直線上升~
3: 可能佢一開始同我傾第2D嘢, 同埋講D 好WARM嘅說話..所以心情平靜下來
4: 我知佢真係好擔心我, 打比我..但心情真係差透...唔想聽,SORRY..但狂SEND SMS, 公仔氹我開心...罪惡感?? 傻啦...
今日真係好唔開心, LEE期只有你了解我...THANKS! I LOVE YOU!
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"I AM JEALOUS OF HIM ,HE CAN MAKE YOU HAPPY..." 哈哈..你都日日令我開心了...

MY LOVE

可能每次逗留時間唔多...今次係HOME STAY 最耐...幾日前問定我想食咩...真係好鍾意LEE度...好WARM...好 FAMILY FEEL~~~ 好多謝你地不斷叫我多D上嚟玩, 上嚟住, 上嚟煮嘢食比我..真係好幸福~竟然喺人地屋企受到重視 ^^亦好多謝你知我成日一個人, 怕我悶,寂寞, 想成日陪我...真係好想講"感激我遇見"

一日個口係唔停...一陣又有生果?一陣又有粟米, 一陣又有維他命果汁, 真係當我自己人...

OUT OF SCHOOL, 真係一D都無師生FEEL...同埋唔覺年齡差距, 只感好啱咀形...不約而同, 大家好想介紹自己D FD 比對方識~ 想一齊旅行....哈哈

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生日快樂~~
估唔到今年生日第一句收到嘅說話係 :" 我愛你"...
真係好特別~
第一次喺溫書中渡過00:00 , 仲要一個人..哈哈...真係好另類?~
但竟然無悶悶不樂呀,或者咩..
可能一早已知LEE度唔係我地方..唔係香港, 如果喺香港, 應該好似英女皇壽辰咁連續幾日唔同朋友慶祝...
不過好開心, 未到00:00 有人打比我陪我傾住計渡過00:00
RIE 00:00 SEND SMS 比我
細JOE 00:00 SEND SMS 比我..LEE個真係好SPECIAL , 因為..香港慢一個鐘..佢竟然咁有心..計埋時間SEND ..真係好TOUCHING~~
今年嘅BIRTHDAY WISH有D不一樣~~~

happy birthday to me

由尋日起到今日...真係好興奮心情~~~因為幾十年一次嘅潤4月生日...終於來臨~~~
應該所有我尋日有向佢地提過朋友都知道我有幾開心,..EVEN 韓國人都好, 唔知咩叫潤月..但話聽到我把聲咁開心, 佢就開心...真係好開心..喺屋企跳埋舞添^^
今日一放學, 即刻同지은返屋企先..一日入面" CRAZY","STUPID"成日出現喺口中...^^
之後去明洞DUTY FREE, 今日出入LV, CHANEL已OVER 10次??!?! 大家都CRAZY.不過...我知自己咩呢..SO 好冷靜~~~I UNDERSTOOD YOU!!!  HAHAHAHAHA...選擇困難症....真係唔知買咩BRAND好...好想要LV...但太貴..真係心都痛~~~所以最後由BOSS 幫我CHOOSE! Padar~
好鍾意, 多謝哂~~~有D 唔好意思~~~
之後3個人再去食豬骨煲, 其實我知對方知我好鍾意食, 所以先講食LEE個...I LOVE YOU
3個人就會發生LEE D 情況, 是旦一方悶...我明...SO SORRY...所以都係安排下party 玩好d..i like party time , we can communicate!! i am the party queen~~~~
今個生日期實好想去整個蛋糕比自己...i will try my best to do it!!
所以我好想學好KOREAN .可以同지은流利咁講~~
boss 走左之後. 同芝恩即飲返支啤酒, 爽丫丫呀~  跟本2個人又開始發顛,傾計..lee d 話題真係唔可以比人知...真係嫁唔出...hahahahah
之後再陪我去多次duty free 行...
今日真係好開心..2個best of the top 都一齊.~~
i  was very happy that i can spend time with us on my birthday!!! i love you very much!!!!

心急人上

可能受過旅行社TRAIN 過, 唔鍾意WASTE TIME 喺D 無謂人身上...
今晚為左要對答EXAM, 同個同學仔約出嚟傾...傾成晚...都係NO ANS..SO...送走佢..
SEE U NEXT!!
WASTE MY TIME!!!
但好好笑...LEE排個電話成日HANG..同一時間幾個人KAKAO, 又WHATSAPP又LINE..即HANG...成晚又中文又英文SEND SMS, 一路同同學仔傾點寫...都唔係傾,係睇佢寫..因我已寫左了...
突然竟然問我同MISS 係咪好FD...HAHA我都話啦. 上次KTV之後D人一定知我地FD...不過, 我係一個ACTRESS, 亦係一個大話主義者... 作故事, 我只可以講, 我本事...haha..所以...HAHA...又一個受騙...HAHA

HAPPY ENJOY

今日好 RELAX... 好享受人生...
是日行程係先一齊瞓過教,再去漢江PICNIC..鋪張BLANKET,買個 HAMBURGER SET 坐喺漢江好RELAX咁渡過...超ENJOY! 之後太凍關係..去左側面COFFEE SHOP傾計..其實真係幾SHOCK! 不過我扮無咩SPECIAL..真係好好好好好開心, 你真係當我CLOSE FD...SHARE LEE個咁大秘密比我聽...仲要係一個無飲酒嘅情況下...THANKS
之後去左MAPO MEET 埋JAY 佢地..去路梁津食海鮮..真係好開心...突然被JUNE問你地識幾耐??咁FD 嘅?? 原來計落都只不過係1個半月嘅事...HAHA..但好神奇..不其然, 真係好想好想SHARE自己嘅事比對方聽...EVEN 無人知嘅事...人與人之間相處真係好神奇...付出與扶持...突然好掛住香港嘅好姊妹們...好兄弟們...
今晚真係好特別, 有MISS, 有JAY..識埋NICE JUNE 同睇住我大嘅JAY媽一齊...呀...真係好有以前嘻嘻哈哈講低能嘢. 講下笑下..好RELAX...好開心... 雖然唔同語言,但...但大家都溝通到, 連AUNTIE 都同MISS 都講到, MAYBE大家有HEART去MEET 對方.
呀~~~~ 真係好鍾意今日全日呀~~~
臨走, AUNTIE 突然唱首生日歌比我聽..真係好開心..
第一個同我講生日快樂同祝我嘅係細JOE.
第一個唱歌嘅係AUNTIE...
真係好SURPRISE!!
LEE幾日不斷被問31號想點過...太不了解我了...
忍唔住同幾個人GROUP傾, ..哈哈, 1人前KTV, 1 個人, 1支咪, 1隻杯, 1支酒, 1個CAKE... 張單返嚟CLAIM 數...HAHA 濺到呢...不過...真係好開心..因為一路講一路笑...可能往年比D好朋友好姊妹...寵壞左. SURPRISE 有心思嘅去學整蛋糕, 安排好哂...真係好PERFECT!!! EVEN年年都係差唔多..但真係開心..
好WARM 嘅一句:"唔緊要.返嚟同你補祝,搞大佢" HAHAHA
今年生日好開心嘅係MISS 多次問我:" CAN I CELEBRATE WITH U", 同亞SIR 突登請假要陪我...我要學"知足" ...因為有2個好朋友陪已ENOUGH了.
不如今年自己整個蛋糕比自己??  我諗一定好好玩~~想ENJOY 玩嘅過程~~
789同SNOOPY都話同我慶,CYSTAL 又問我幾時食飯...嘻嘻..I AM SO LUCKY!

i really mean

今日終於精神D, 有返把聲...成個人唔同返, 好嘈呀~~
上堂MISS無返...同SHERMING SEND SMS, 真係濺, 咁都比我諗到. PRIVATE ASSISANT. 受薪制...哈哈..
下午見有返D精神, 開始打理返家務..
是夜又做濺呢, 叫人請食飯..仲叫人上嚟搞埋我間房..搞到成11點幾先返屋企..真係好攰...
但今晚瞓得好差...狂醒...周身癢...頂...
一個HOPE, 星期六前我地一定要好返...我要去PICNIC!!!!!!!

MY WORLD IS CHANGED

CARE 嘅已不一樣, 令我開心嘅都不一樣了...HAHA
估唔到...原來真係同邊D人玩埋嗰排, 病都一齊病架.... 之後同SHERMING 玩得密, 病就一齊病, 而家同지은~玩得好密...估唔到大家一齊失聲同咳, 要一齊走堂...不過, 一家唔係我傳比佢 , 嗰朝只係見一面, 比嘢佢唔夠3MINS, 2次厠所見面...HAHA...都係夾^^
是夜不停收SMS, 可能FACEBOOK 留言嘅關係啦...不過今次大家都諗多左...同埋個個都問我一人返定2人返? 又問點解??? HAHA...唔通我同SHERMING 之前行 "孖BI" 嘅形象太深入民心?? HAHAHA.. 個個都以前我地咩事...?? HAHHA 不過今次我都好想....2人前...3日2夜都好...^^ 好希望...正如亞JAY講得好啱..太了解我了...
放左學之後大昏迷 , 每次食完藥都好WING, 好暈,無力...一返到屋企,我連有人客嚟左都唔知就瞓左....搞到人地以為我係女魔頭咁.,我一返,要即散...走鬼咁...HHAH,白痴~..由2點瞓到6點幾...起身, 終於有力氣可以嘢食..照顧自己了..自己煮飯食, 蒸水蛋...今次好成功丫...
跟住D SMS 又嚟, 電話又嚟...真係咁CARE 我??!! 同一時間...我只會覺得自己係一個BAD GIRL... 1 + 1 =我 ??!

I WANNA BE WITH YOU

下午被2個人問點解入醫院都唔即刻打比佢...LEE個MOMENT 好WARM...
瞓教前同幾個好好朋友傾計, 嘻嘻哈哈, 撒嬌...
不同地方一齊瞓...
但一瞓醒...成間房黑, 屋企無人, 個人好暈, 好驚...好寂寞...忍唔住喊左出嚟...
始終我都唔可以生存喺一個無愛嘅地方, EVEN FRIEND , LOVERS,FAMILY... 自己一直以為朋友收工返嚟整嘢食...HAHAHA..又諗多左...想煮個嘢食..但...無力...所以唯有繼續躺在床上SEND SMS..
忍唔住同你呻...SHARING 自己感受...
THANK YOU SO MUCH...
你一句說話唔洗行動, 已令我流眼淚...真係好眼淺....
同埋好無用...
嚟左咁耐..都好似獨立唔到咁...
每日已不停同自己講, 唔可以再倚賴人, 要自己生活, 行動都已經做埋....但原來個腦都唔比我獨立...
" YOU ARE GROW UP,  YOU ARE ADULT, YOU CAN DO THAT..."
THANKS!! MY BABY~~
成晚你用左好多說法氹我....我感受到嘅... I LOVE YOU


P.S 另...你一句 "唔怕, 有我在."I GET IT, THANKS!

好開心

返左屋企, 做左一陣功課, 再出去MEET CRYSTAL, 之後再MEET  지은. 3個人去食雪糕, 3個人玩到顛哂...應該咁講, 係我同지은2條友玩到好顛..^^.之後2個仲要諗埋D濺嘢, 驚今晚無人去食飯, 得班長去..所以突登遲5-8分鐘去到, 遠眺有咩人先出現..如果淨得有班長去, 無其他人嘅話, 即閃!!! .HAHA...仲要等埋其他人時, 2個人玩錄音玩到顛...HAHA HAHA....

1場: 烤肉店. D同學仔已有2個被K.O.. 估唔到喺LEE度都有人同我一齊玩灌醉人.一個倒燒酒一個倒啤酒, .証明班長人緣幾好...第一場話咁快...唉, 垃圾!!!

2場: 可以飲酒嘅KTV. 我嘅LOVELY PARTNER... 可能悶悶地, 所以要搵D嘢玩, 全程跟LOVELY PARTNER 舞足全程...HAHA......真係以為自己去左PHYSICAL.^^

9點幾, 2個人走先...走去買鞋,之後返屋企..10點幾...瞓了...

可能受朋友仔影響,一般9點幾10點就SEND GOODNIGHT SMS比我...所以...而家竟然....都早瞓埋...

今日真係好開心^^ 玩得好開心..I LIKE SPEND TIME WITH YOU...COS CRAZY GONNA CRAZY!!

MEAN

我真係發覺同我做得朋友嘅都係MEAN嘅人..哈哈..
濺呢2人組...HAHA...
取笑人地,又講MOTEL RM313...NAKED,SHOWER...HAHAHA ..真係顛線~ 真係愈來愈FRIEND...不得了...
我鍾意你夠顛同轉數同我樣^^.

노래대회ENJOY 就真係一D都唔ENJOY架啦...加上LEE個不得了嘅班長...真係火都嚟...
尋日仲要比條四川濺婦賴好心做D多X如嘅嘢, 搞到我好似有問題咁...
忍~~~~

UMMM...

未瞓醒收到個BAD NEWS...成個人即醒...... 我明嘅你已盡哂力...
所以好快我上網BOOK 哂 4 段飛...
點解日日都咁...FEEL SO HARD..想點呀???
WANT TO TAKE A DEEPTH BREATH~~
突然收到你個MESSAGE.. 問我幾號來回..
"if i can lie , have a cold or get a diarrhea or something to my professor, i will go to hk even if only a coupleof days. then can you meet me in hk??"
雖然未CFM, 但有HEART...已好開心..真係..
RECENTLY U ARE THE ONLY ONE JUST CAN MADE ME HAPPY...
it's true...
P.S 多謝 our love grows deeper as time passes.

*** 當一個人心情唔好, 有煩惱時..有咩方法可以發洩???***
就係飲酒 ONLY???
仲有無其他??
LEE排...簡直CRAZY GONNA CRAZY!!!!

sooooo touching

u make me surprise and happy everyday... recently add more and more touching for me...
yesterday night, when i slept, i just send u sms that tomorrow i must be hungry due to tonight didn't have any meal....
today i just said do u know why i wake up so early??? u just said "hungry?" i said of course... i can't believe that u said:" i made lunch box for you",and i can't believe that u said 5am  to made for me....i am very very very very happy...
ohhh~~ surprised that i can feel your heart in the food... cos many many materials in there...^^
when i sit in the classroom eat.. i feel many ppl jealous of me...haha.. and i WONT share with others...
today i really really really touch and after that i want to do somethings for you... really... it's true,..however i don't know how to cook...i  want to learn to cook for you...
you really kindly for me...
and anytime anywhere, just i need u , u will stand by me~~~
i love you!

i love u

due to each night i must send u kakao even you slept, so early morning, when i woke up..i must receive your warm text..." pls remember that i am always be nearby you, pls lean on me,ok?? i love you honey...pls lean on me, i would love that, really if i can do anything for you, i am happy, you are my sunshine".. after reading  these texts...  i cry.. i don't know what i can say.. i can meet such this fd.. to tell the truth, i can't living without you..."lean on"..i never heard someone talk to me... it is the first time, even bf also didn't see such like this ....omg .. thanks alot!!

so today in a lesson,  i really think much.change my mind . :" time never stop, time goes by, how comei don't keep a happy mood to pass throught? these few days, i feel i wasted my times. unhappy, upset...of couse i must have such feelings, but just think of the happy things such as GO TRAVEL,YOU NEXT TO ME, YOUR TOUCHING TEXT, AND MANY BEST WHO LIVES IN HK ARE WAITING FOR ME, how come just 1 person let me unhappy so many days?? it's unfair to all my love, my text...so i must be happy start from now...

and i am your sunshine,so i must give you happiness!!!

and today u make the food to me... but don't know why share whole class, but just 1 sentence " i was gonna give it only for you" but it's make me happy and happy.. so touching...

the only thing that can touch me is you !! i help me alot... you really my sunshine!

HATE MYSELF

nowsaday, just have wifi area, i will very busy...
even having meal...
"WHEN U WANT TO CRY, CALL ME".. i call you and cry... i know you are very really worried about me...
"if alcohol makes you feel better, please drink"
just you are the one who support me !!
after that i join my fd to enjoy drink
I just want to say, i was the fool, i hate myself... what's wrong with me?? why??? what??? i lost myself....
i never ever think i will do this sucks! i am afraid.. i dont know what can i do next, i am sorry to uuuuuuuu....
today when i wake up (actually)i didn't sleep... i am thinking what i am doing,what rubbish i was...i can't accept... 
b, pls wake up!!! 

^ ^

文字上嘅對話, 真係可以令人感受到好溫暖~~ " you are my sweetiest honey ever. now i cannot live without you " ..haha...真係好SWEET!  "  I AM WORRIED YOU FEEL LONELY"....EVEN 心情LEE 幾日有幾DOWN, 只要收到對方MESSAGE 或來電已經好開心, 成個人開心返..U MAKE ME HAPPY!!
星期六就知我嘅假期係幾時啦...^^ ..好心急,好緊張, 好期望我地ENJOY!! 如果可以真係好想JOIN 埋我D 好姊妹一齊去SO CRAZY!!!
HAHA

thank you baby

LEE排日日都飲酒..好似無酒不歡咁...
所以尋晚一早叫人今朝一定要MC 我...因我已搬床位了^^. 但原來...對方係一早SET自己個MC, 再MC 我..之後再瞓返...真係好感動, 自己咁耐, 只有我咁對人地做LEE個行為, 第一次比人地咁做...原來..個心好幸福. 當然同一時間..有內疚感同唔好意思....
可能LEE幾日太攰, 可以話心力交碎...好似好多不必要嘅壓力, 好辛苦....日日都呻同一個TOPIC. 但真係好開心, 有你SHARING , 做我PERFECT LISTENER...每次傾完之後, 心情舒服好多好多...無咁DOWN...無咁SAD...雖然事實幫唔到D咩..但JUST LISTEN 同真係用盡方法去逗我開心. 已經ENOUGH!!!
去工幹, 用左少少心意...上堂時大家偷笑嘅樣子, 真係好FUNNY...
LEE幾日大家嘅TOPIC都好"意外"...真係可以講大家都唔想...因為全部都係BAD THINGS, 好SAD...其實我真係好想我地SHARING HAPPINESS...
今日比CRYSTAL 問我點解會FD 成咁...成件事講哂佢聽. 佢都覺得好FUNNY...
是夜出動..去波波HOME DINNER, 第一次JOIN 佢地HOME MAKE DINNER..都幾FUNNY...好好食...好懷念...^^..但SEND SMS 已成生活不可缺少的一部份...因為SEND 左成個幾鐘SMS...
一個人一飲酒真係悶左D....ANYWAY... PLS PLS LET ME HAPPY!!!
淚水已開工48?72?小時???

JET!! UP AND DOWN

恭喜對方..因為佢可以做到一個可以令我開心同唔開心嘅人...
上午好地地...下午...哈...NTH CAN SAY..
LEE排可以大家都有急事需要對方, 所以加多左" CAN I CALL YOU,AND SURE " LEE個對答同行動...
好似被人挑戰我底線咁...我,..被誤會了....
以前我真係會有行動...但今次...SORRY...無力了...
忍唔住同BABY SEND SMS , 跟住再傾埋電話...真係不得了....LEE刻你明白我, 我真係好感動...忍唔住在街上喊....
好難受...

DOWN

可以用委屈形容嗎??
淚水已不甘地流了2天...
好攰了...無力了...
好在...好在...有你陪我....
PLS RESPECT OUR RELATION!!!
有D說話唔可以一講再講...真係無彎轉...悔氣嘅說話只會令人厭倦...
我已無力去挽救一切..縱使我好想...
一次又一次...我...輸了....
SORRY...要BABY日日24小時SEND SMS 擔心我...安慰我...
我只可以講 ," 你是不能取締的 "...
我識分有HEART AND 無HEART...
THANK YOU!!!
失控中...

REPEAT AND REPEAT!

喊唔係因為甘心與否. 而係....點解次次都係咁...
好多謝每句窩心嘅關心,
你~係可以令我好開心無壓力嘅人...
喊為咩??? 我都唔知....但真係好想....
飲為咩??真係唔知...但係好想...
是夜好想STAY ALONE...但已有約在先...不但不出席...唯有...I AM A PERFECT ACTRESS !!

LONG TIME NO REPORT!!

真係好似好耐無寫日記了...
LEE期真係忙左...考試啩... 面子問題, 同埋唔想令MISS難為情...佢幫我私人上門補習, 我又成日煩住佢...問佢咁多問題, 仲要係任何時間....所以更加唔可以差...星期六同日全日STAY HOME溫~~FINAL... 都OK 嘅...有2份70幾, 1份80幾, 1份90幾 ( MISS 嗰份) ^^
*******

其實已經好FD...大家已肯定了唔係NORMAL FD,..係交心GOOD FD...無論思想, 嗜好大家都一致^^
尋日真係好突然...好耐無做過姊妹應援組了...突然收到一個SMS, :" SAMMY, NOW I REALLY WANT TO CRY.."真係嚇到..突然好似以前姊妹上身咁... 問位置, 洗唔洗陪.....因為而家考緊試仲係...所以佢唔比我陪..只係SEND傾...真係我真唔相信1小時13分鐘,對話有291個...仲要唔短, 係好長....全日SEND SMS OVER 500 個,真係不得不承認我地真係好勁... 同好顛..堅持唔拎電話講...HAHA..我諗如果我地真係傾埋電話...真係不得了...EVEN 尋晚我係想拎電話同對方講...因為佢講講下, 問我點...我又忍唔住同佢講哂所有...大家都唔開心..同一TOPIC...SHARING, 大家都唔想同自己CLOSE FD 講...因為..估唔到尋晚後我地變為BEST FD...大家都同自己FD 講對方..HAHAHA
不過過埋星期一之後就要轉MISS/SIR 啦...只有2同4 下午LESSON 先見, 唔開心左添...不過變左喺學校唔洗扮唔熟...^^
*******
LEE 2, 3日真係唔開心...好想喊... 點解??? 第2次....

鍾意左返學

因為日日同上期班主任傾計(因為隔離班房)... 而家同個MISS FD 左.日日鍾意上第3,4節課(應該話由第一堂期待到第3堂)...上第3,4節課時感覺好得意...大家FD 但又要喺其他人面前扮NORMAL FD.但成日又單眼. 對望笑, COOL頸, 攬住, 2個人坐1張凳傾計...其實明眼人都知我地有幾FD..尋日行街食飯上我屋企又唔可以比人知...今日返學狂嘔, 問我係咪因為尋日食豬骨煲食太多??飲嗰2支酒?? 好想同D同學仔SHARING 覺得我個人點, 但又唔講得太多...好好笑...成日講講下STOP 左...
今日上堂問我一句我唔識答嘅問題, 我放學竟然用左5個鐘時間去諗...
做EX.時又走過嚟問我..係咪想上拼音班, 問我係咪一定要上中文, 叫我去上英文, 因為佢教, 我問佢點報, 佢就話自己入去佢課室就得. 唔好搞咁多嘢...好似被挖角咁...由中文轉英文...HAHAHA
真係第一次同MISS 咁FD , FD 到CLOSE 成咁....幾得意

開心

真係好肯定...當我瞓緊教時係唔可以問我問題同就算我答咩都唔可以作準...
10:30 接一個電話, 只記得係女人....收左線瞓返上床...幾分鐘..諗諗下...邊個嚟?? 問我咩?? 我答左咩??? 於是SEND 左個SMS比我MISS 問佢係咪搵我...真係好瘀...點左佢去第2度接我...最神奇係....佢再打嚟時問我住第幾座, 幾樓咩室...數分鐘後...門鐘響起...已在門口出面...^^; 真係好得意....
今日MIX AND MATCH 好FUNNY, 我, MISS, SHERMING同花. 4人去食豬骨煲..4個人, 一係識韓文英文唔識中文, 一係識中文英文唔識韓文, 一係識韓文中文唔識英文...一係就樣樣識D但唔叻...LEE個組別真係好FUNNY,...
之後再去SHILLA DUTY FREE 血拼...我有理由相信韓國人係好鍾意DUTY FREE 嘅, 仲要係超鍾意...
原來一開頭我比人感覺係唔易相處, 串, 挑剔嘅人???
ANYWAY..FINAＬ一句窩心嘅。。真係好ＷＡＲＭ！！！

^^

尋日嘅開心好似ACC咁, 帶到今日..^^
問我尋晚去左飲酒?? 我話係..即刻笑...我都不其然笑了出來...
約星期日行街??!! 如果CFM ...都真係好期待...
比你講到夜晚賞櫻好似好WONDERFUL咁...都想想地去一次...

有D事已習慣了...應該見怪不怪....I DON'T CARE??!!

今日咩事...一D十年唔見朋友竟然約我食飯...真係估你唔到...

放學同CRYSTAL 去溫書...我想LEE幾日追返我失去的..佢有問題問我而我去答時...原來都幾好..我又入左腦了...

一個好有趣嘅評語, 睇完忍唔住笑出嚟 :  와~저도 감자탕을 아주 좋아해요. 감자탕과 소주~ 와우~ ^^ ( 哇~我都好鍾意豬骨煲, 豬骨煲和燒酒~ WOW ^^) 超好笑~~~

開心..

今日成日都好開心....真係好開心...
因為一個美麗謊言, 估唔到對方都真係關心我...
不斷SEND 安慰嘅SMS 比我, 叫我快D休息, 唔好諗其他嘢....
第2日, 我諗住FINAL 埋件事, 同對方講 " I GOT IT", 我真係無諗過對方反應咁厲害, 即刻攬過嚟, 由走廊行住入房, 跟住當住全人類面前大叫" 我而家好想飲酒"呀...之後又再攬過嚟...真係估唔到...跟住, 喺短短50分鐘入面, 不時望過嚟好開心咁微笑...50分鐘後, 再離開間房時, 又同我問我今日有咩PLANNING? 我以為今晚大家出去玩, 點知佢話今晚唔得,問我下個禮拜得唔得?我話唔得...正常一般NORMAL 人就講下次先...點知佢好認真望住日曆講咁再下個禮一定要慶祝!!!聽完..真係好開心..因為佢係上左心, 為我高興..走左之後SEND SMS 比佢..THANK YOU 佢...估唔到佢SEND 好多個SMS 好窩心嘅比我...真係好WARM...

波波3日2夜602之旅... 今日LAST DAY...我地個會議真係開左好耐....好似10年無見...竟然由1點半傾到6點20, 仲要未停過, 無DEAD AIR...真係好開心.,...

更加估唔到...真係估唔到....竟然收到佢嘅SMS. 問我食飯未...跟住打比我...問我想食咩.....約我食飯...雖然有原因...但都好開心...估唔到原來對方知我咁多嘢...之後仲有佢朋友JOIN, 又估唔到大家有共同朋友...然後再去下場, 食魚生... 2個人上場時每人2杯BEER, 估唔到下場時..佢仲叫多5支...我估佢心情係唔開心...因為每叫一支時佢都會講LEE 支LAST ONE...HAHAHA..差唔多1點幾先返到屋企...我竟然SEND 左個SMS 比對方...換嚟2個字 " 真的 "....HAHA ...

但有件事...覺得自己做錯...因為唔記得打返屋企講出街...打和...
不過....
大家都在改變嗎...????
定係....??

嬲

嬲...
因為得不到尊重...
因為無SAY SORRY...
因為....
心淡了...
無嘢想講..
問題總是存在??
但有D事..我總是解不開....

SCHOOL DAY

一期一FUNNY TEACHER!!!
今次LEE個女版GTO.. HAHAH....好搞笑, 第一日已經同佢FD 左..玩埋一堆!!!!
竟然鍾意落CLUB, 飲酒...HAHA

那些年

離開了香港之後, 真係好多事物都追不上...
因為要看一" 那些年" , 將原本今日嘅SCHEDULE 全部CXL...
原本今日想去玩狗, 想去街市, 想去哂相....
突然好想好想睇LEE 套戲...
可能因為...返HK之後, 太多人問我有無睇LEE套, 有無睇嗰套...搞到我太多戲想睇了...^^
睇完那些年之後, 真係會諗起好多以前嘅事..
諗起以前書包入面唔係書, 係錄影帶, VCD, CD, YES. YES IDOLS, 偶像嘅嘢...
諗起以前當眾話尹SIR 姣.差D記缺點, 用左2堂時間審犯...
諗起以前一BREAK 落樓下買魚旦, 杯面食....
諗起以前上堂出貓...第2行同LAST 一行同亞姑姑出貓...
諗起以前抄功課....真係好好笑..
但竟然....我諗得仲多嘅係...喺永安嘅時代...
但點解樣樣都係咁幼稚嘅??? HAHAHA
不過LEE個都已經係PAST TENSE...
我而定WAITNING 緊我嘅FUTURE TENSE!!!

BREAK!

21/3-1/4 TERM BREAKS....GO GO GO
THAILANDＩAM COMING...
HK I AM COMING...
咩都唔理. 只尋開心之旅START!
第幾次同亞SIR 去旅行呢???已經數唔到了多到... SO FAR 去咁多次...FINAL都真係好開心咁返...
只係想食下嘢, 休息下, 拜下神..THAT'S ALL..
想要做嘅事已完成...(艱辛地)
唯獨美中不足嘅係...泳池竟然無酒牌... 邊有可能架??
*****
由泰國飛香港嗰一刻真係好期待....超期待呀...因為精彩嘅活動由落機起START!!!!
短短7日, 真係好開心....真係好唔捨得...
SPECIAL...LAST 1晚, 你同我講嘅嘢,...真係忍唔住喊...
7日好似DREAMING 咁....可唔可以唔好醒??可唔可以唔好返去現實???
7日比我知道...我真係有一班"唔變"嘅好兄弟姊妹們....
I LOVE YOU!
我唔會悶嘅..
我唔會再做無聊事...

舒服哂

原來事件解決哂之後.個人真係舒服好多, 最少好期待去泰國食嘢, 飲酒, 游水.好期待返香港見D 好朋友, 姊妹,去KTV, 食飯, 重拾我失去嘅精彩夜生活, 雖然咩PLAN 都未有, 但....就算食, 我都好滿足...同埋好開心係...已收到好多SMS 話返香港要見面... LEE個係一個"價值" ^^

雖然唔知LEE個決定唔知做得啱唔啱, 但...嚟緊我要加倍心機用功, 唔再心散 ^^  對得住自己個決定. 

終於

失眠左3晚..今日終於要面對, 好慶幸同MISS KAKAO TALK , 啪左我針, 所以我先OK, 可以忍住...
分數...我唔OK 嘅..亦因為上學期唔合格, 令拉唔到分....
由9點鐘上堂到12點...我全程專心唔到, 諗好多嘢...
FINAL 自己有個決定, 再同3個人講, 一個係過來人,佢讚成我...明白我諗咩...但第2個竟然...我明佢諗咩, 因為早在星期五,我已諗過哂佢講嘅...大家各有己見, 再講就嘈..FINAL 再問第3個...同佢傾完..真係舒服哂...我唔係要一個認同, 因為今次我好認真去對待LEE件事...
50小時一個人認真去想...
我只希望身邊嘅朋友係支持同理解...
好似一個了斷咁...

自豪

我估成世女都無咩自豪...唯有嘅係一班對我好真嘅心靈朋友. 兄弟姊妹好友...
可能尋日喊得太多...今日都無咁多眼淚出...電話依然唔想聽...但至少今日都回應SMS...
好多謝你..同你講完之後, 你竟然講"我出 $2000機票錢" 唔係因為錢嘅問題, 係因為你真係重視我...你會好擔心我, 用心咁連續2日都SEND SMS 比我安慰我...
真係好感動...

懷念

懷念以前香港時, 分手又好, 咩事都好. 姊妹們幾遠都好, 幾夜都好, 幾攰都好, 都會撲出嚟陪你縱使坐唔出聲都好, 都比你感受到自己正在生存中, 感受到他們有幾撐你...嗰時只會覺得大家姊妹嘛, 必然啦...所以不當一回事, 只會閒時攞返出嚟講笑咁講...但原來LEE D 就係經營出嚟嘅成果

嚟左韓國, 相對地我比其他留學生幸福好多...因為有大屋住,有好嘢食, 要咩有咩, 想點就點...除左自己心理上責任負擔之外...有時真係想..唔通家族族譜寫漏左我仲有個姐姐?? 但...原來, 生在福中不知福...考試竟然可以考成咁...愧對任何人, 加上面子問題...真係好唔開心...尋日成日諗左好多嘢...究竟我係咪任性?? 究竟我係咪唔適合讀書?? 我係咪有讀書障礙?? 究竟...好多究竟...解唔開...好耐好耐無試過喊成咁...之前縱使有幾唔開心, 都會周圍同人講, 我唔開心唔開心, 講完就無事....但今次...我唔想講嘢, 唔想面對任何人, 唔想返埋餘下日子嘅學, 唔想去旅行, 唔想返香港, 只係想安靜唔講嘢...但好想有人陪, 坐喺我身邊...可惜...無..有D失望...但...明嘅..心中有答案, 唔同朋友唔同性格.


又諗..REPEAT 咪REPEAT 囉, 個底打好D囉, 最多之前諗住讀 6 LEVEL. 咁而家咪謮5個LEVEL 囉...(不過都你講下)如果比你上到, 你之後都會讀得好辛苦, 仲好, EPEAT 咪無咁大壓力囉...不斷向好嘅方向諗...

但...其實內心真係好難過...

自私

今日為左MISS 嘅SMS ...喊左好耐, 悶悶不樂一日....

今次EXAM 應該好差... 資質問題定...?? 真係唔知..但我只知, 我今次真係好努力去讀...真係好努力...但我真係接受唔到....愈諗愈唔開心...唔開心喊...TIMING?? 點解...又係無即時FEEDBACK?? 可能已經慣了...咩都算了...只係唔想講嘢...真係好想有人陪...喺LEE個MOMENT 我需要人嘅指數, 比喺之前話孤獨嘅OVER 100倍...可惜, 要去玩嘅玩, 要返HK嘅返...坐在床上一整天...唔想對外接觸...唔想比人知我D事...

是夜忍受唔到...估唔到...我咁低潮時會係由你陪我...飲2場...同韓國人成晚用韓文講, 對方話聽得明我講咩...咁點解..我ORAL會咁差吖...??

我心情真係好差....

久違的

好似好耐未試過笑成咁...雖然好白痴...但每次諗起都好開心...真係好開心, 好好笑, 突然想...好似我 LEE 2個幾月, 未試過笑成咁....THANKS

好得意, 我圈子入面有好多唔同類型嘅朋友,有D係好TAKE CARE 你, 好似屋企嘅家姐呀咁...但你關於心情/感受上有咩發生,你未必會同佢講, 或會想起佢..因為知道佢唔會滿足到你心靈上安慰, 佢無興趣聽..有D朋友係傾心事嘅朋友, 有咩都會主動同佢地講,  基本係心入面個盒你會發生後1,2日會主動開比佢睇咁...有D 係好久唔見一次, 平時無咩CONTACT, 但一CONTACT 就REPORT 返無見咁耐嘅事...無生疏,無悶場...有D就一見面, 就HEHEHAHA ...好開心...老實講, 我真係好感激我LEE班好朋友常伴左右...簡單講...真係唔會悶..就算足不出戶, 都可以唔悶. 反而仲覺得唔夠時間咁...反而如果無左部電話..我反面會死...^^

今次考試好失望嘅, 因為,平時最最有信心個兩份PAPER , 今次竟然我唔識, 唔係要求高分. 而係PASS都唔知得唔得...好HURT, 望住份PAPER, D 字好似識跳咁...好難專心望...突然好驚...覺得好似唔識咁...一段文字望左5次都唔可以集中望...一開始已經咁..個心沈哂...反而另外2份, 今次竟然OK...但接受唔到自己有比心機負出而咁失敗,

一見面, 同你講唔開心..你即刻攬住我...雖然好想兜巴星反抗, 但..小狗永遠都係無反拒能力...>.<..  LEE 個MOMENT 我知大家都" 在心中", 只不過我地唔係坐定定傾計嘅...唔會好認真去面對, 處理一件事..而會用另類我倆獨有嘅生活語言相處. 雖然我有想過, 我地好似HEHA朋友, 有時會收埋D事...但我明每人都有秘密, 但反而我好鍾意LEE 個處理方式, 有感唔認真, 但有心.. ^^

2日聽到好多次"我個心有你"....明架啦...唔洗REPEAT, 雖然我倆真係少左聯絡, 有時會想我地係咪變質...但..LEE2  日CFM 唔係囉, 我相信之前辛苦經營嘅,唔會因為少少時間而改...當流架??雖然我真係好薄情...HEHE..但... 真係"在心中".

OVER

今次考試, 加埋今次, 4次...4次都係考之前病...其實係咪緊張壓力?? 學業嘅壓力, 尋日LINE 內容嘅壓力, ..好多唔同嘅壓力加加埋埋真係好爆.....今日由4PM 溫到9PM..溫到個人燥..好炆...

LEE 個MOMENT ,你好似上帝派比我嘅使者拯救我咁...出嚟同你食7咁食...飲返杯...RELAX 好多好多...舒服哂...

今晚好開心... ^^突然好似見返好耐無見嘅B 咁....究竟而家屋企嘅B 係自己定....今晚嘅B 係自己呢???講嘢假到爆嘅係自己定唔想講嘢嘅係自己??? 有時諗LEE個題目已經好頭痛... 究竟我係去配合人而不自覺地改變自己?? 定LEE個先係真正嘅自己???

突然

了解我嘅你...同我講左你嘅想法之後....
我成晚諗...諗點解你會咁講?? 如果係其他人講時, 我真係唔諗咁多, 一句 "你都"ON"嘅.."..但LEE個想法係出自你時...我真係好認真...好MIND...

一晚嘅冷靜想...心中有答案. 因為我自己知自已要咩, 諗咩, 做咩...

之前的而且確係有問題, 但....我堅持人地鍾意我都無法...開心一定有, 任誰都想自己係童話公主入面嘅白雪公主咁有人鍚...但..我只不過係迷糊幾日...之後靜落嚟, 夠鐘醒返, 搵返自己, 咪得囉, 唔係咩??

肯定嘅, 我今次一月返嚟到而家...4個字 " 不知所謂 " LEE 幾日反省好多次....WHY? WHAT?? 我唔可以好肯定講我而家個腦好清醒, 但至少而家 知自己想好咩, 想做D咩先..

喺香港成日渴望一個人住..今個月完全滿足哂我...原來我真係好ENJOY 一個人生活. 想點就點...同一時間証明我係暖家嘅, 有人約...真係睇邊個約囉...都唔想離開屋企, 寧願住喺床到百無了賴, 講下電話, SEND 下SMS, 或大大聲播歌, 睇TV都唔想離開屋企...

miss

原來我錯過左好多嘢...今日無啦啦用佢個名yahoo search...原來佢而家喺北海道..北海道大学 / 医学(系)研究科(研究院) 做助教.....真係錯哂...lee個應該係拍得最耐, 最鍾意...最後無故分手而最可惜嘅一個...
如果嗰時我識諗..(而家都唔識諗)...我估, 我應該一世免費睇醫生 ^^ hahahaha
不過鬼叫自己未定..心野...
錯哂~

滿足

今日放學自己去學校診所睇醫生, 第一次...將自己滑雪跌到, 坐得耐膝蓋好痛,行唔到同醫生講.. 雖然醫生講嘅唔太明. 但MAIN POINT 都OK, 食2日藥, 早晚, AFTER MEAL 30 MINS 食,再貼膠布, 唔WORK 去醫院照X-RAY LEE D 聽得明...睇完唔係因為睇左醫生而開心, 係因為同佢講到咁難嘅而開心...^^ 好有滿足感..

今次証明一個人生活係無問題嘅...

繼續

明知無可能, 但竟然繼續...係挑戰心定....

我不是來者不拒...我喜歡你樣子, 髮型,  喜歡你性格...
 
只是為了尋開心??  喜歡被寵愛???  被人著緊的感覺????

究竟我做緊咩??

玩緊人?? 因為突然失去倚靠, 要搵嘢自我心靈填補?? 如果係咁...我之後一定 HURT 到人, 雖然明知對方唔會係FINAL, 而要一齊, 會好HURT 對方...我唔再想做傷害人嗰個啦...

玩火

近排真係好似玩火咁...
繼上次" 扮無事" 之後...
一係DRY到爆,  悶到死. 一係旺場到咁....
ENJOY??? 都唔知.但肯定唔會FINAL!

突然好似偷情咁...唔可以WHATSAPP, 唔可以LINE...只可以FACEBOOK...不過...好快比我知你有女朋友了...而你都唔介意講比我知..咁...唔可以比佢知我嘅"存在", "存在"又代表咩???我同你已一齊嗎??? 

 突然一個SMS  : 好一個我鍾意左成10年嘅女仔...因為你唔愛, 所以有佢嘅出現, 以後嘅事無人會知, 好多人身邊都唔係佢嘅最愛..."

究竟我想點?? 突然諗起欣宜首歌:" 無人完美".. 係我錯過?? 我要外表定內在?? 我要照顧定開心???

無關痛癢的聚會

唔關我事....只係因為有酒飲..HAHAHA
好在有朋友游子峰同高B陪姐...如果唔係悶死...
今晚飲酒飲得ENJOY!!! 1 腳在 ^^
但...HEHE...個腦...想要WIFI....人好矛盾...唔知自己想點...
今晚, 有D似女皇咁有人餵薯條...不過如果換轉係你...心情會一樣嗎??? ^^
我明TIMING 問題...我明..不過....LEE幾日, TIMING唔係差成咁呀???差到100個不爽...
可唔可以放過我??
可能比我知道SMS 事件簿...所以今日有D說話我會入耳, 亦覺得好似突登比我聽...
ANYWAY... FINE!!!
我都唔知點做好...
飲嘢時, 聽到D無關痛癢嘅人嘅消息...HURT 又好咩都好...I DON'T CARE!!!
~~~~~~~~~
我係MEMBER?? WHAT THE FUCK!!!!
처는 학생이에요...
咩叫私隱???講嘅目的係咪人人GET 到, 我唔覺...只會比我諗埋其他事...資質差, 浪費金錢, 時間...上次D人知, 算... 今次又講..仲要成間公司面前好似演講咁.真係接受唔到...仲要之後比人好似安慰我咁...唔緊要啦講多D啦......LEE個MOMENT 比 有人唔覆SMS 更難受....我自尊心真係好強...更接受唔到講住電話問你係咪嬲...

HAE

LEE 2日..都好HAE...LEE D 先係我嘅生活...最唔鍾意放假都PLAN到由早到晚都咁忙....豬嘅生活真係好ENJOY...瞓教唔洗用腦, 唔洗諗D唔想諗嘅嘢..多好!!!
LEE 2日, 每隔2秒就望電話, 睇下有無SMS...
唔通我地真係有時差???無左即時對話嘅畫面了???
今日終於有REPLY啦....
TIMING?! 我真係好唔鍾意LEE個字, 有時往往被LEE個字控制住....而家又你用LEE個字去控制自己....
不過..自己都講唔埋任何事...因為 I ALREADY ADDICTED TO YOU!!!

除了

真係除左好朋友外, 原來LEE個世界應該男同女只有一對, 唔可以存在朋友關係???
"友達以上, 戀人未滿" 唔可以 ???
"習慣" 嘅改變...令我又一次變得無聊...
試下深呼吸句: "睇開D啦".
但...換來係..繼續諗多...
好複雜嘅心情...應該ENJOY 這一刻定....應該理智???
好難選擇答案..
好想憑直覺去任情...

CHANGE

習慣0900開始到0100, 中間不停站...但而家...
對方堅持沒有...但..

...

尋日喺學校....接受唔到個女同學...加之前一晚飲咁多酒..所以早走..RIE 之後SEND左SMS 比我問OK??!! 為左唔想有咩...好耐無做嘅藝人訓練班即上身...連RIE 都呆左...
跳埋D不知所謂嘅舞....WTF! 夜晚約飲酒??!! 可能私人酒腳嚟左...所以其他人?? NO WAY!!!
一如以往, 飛機B. ^^

係我心理作用定咩?? 真係好似咁... 有DD 再多DD 再加DDD 唔開心... 竟然不其然成日望電話有無SMS...

忍唔住問左好姊妹...解開心中個問題....舒服哂.. ^^

今次件事領略了好多嘢...又上一課.

CARE

原來..男同女之間係唔可以存在 "好朋友" ...
已經用好美麗嘅對答...
以為無事...
點知今日換來冷淡...
只不過想要人關心,愛錫 , 點解都咁難???
唔通真係要情侶先可以愛錫對方???
難道要一腳踏幾船先可以有 "愛錫" 嘅感覺???

96HRS

LEE 4日真係超超超超超超超超超超開心...如果SHERMAN 都喺度就更完美!!!!
返左嚟之後, LEE 4日真係飲得好ENJOY, 傾得好開心. 喊得好開懷, 笑得好開放...多謝你陪我咁多....SPECIAL 尋日..放棄左D嘢, 真係好唔開心...好在有你陪伴我...I LOVE YOU!
好懷念我地3人KTV 嘅時間....好懷念我地去酒吧時飲酒....好懷念我地坐埋一齊傾心事...真係好懷念....
96小時又完結了...好似發夢要醒咁...
返回現實...
雖然LEE 96 小時...有D嘢係接受唔到..但...算吧啦...突然覺得自己好似烈女咁...
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!! ZOME

20120222

special day for me...
thanks!

錯

原來同一個一D感情都無嘅人拉上...真係有D不爽...
第一次咁樣...點解我會咁???
不憤!!!!
因為咁...我更想要人鍚我!!!

心

有人關心, 有人鍚嘅感覺...多好
一日24小時...我覺得大家好似在一起咁...LEE種感覺好似未試過....

WARM AND WORRY

3日2夜

3日2夜SKI TOUR...
LEE 個TOUR 之後, 我CFM.....
好難受...因為...
一個本應好開心好開心..點解會咁... 酒店房好似病床...A B 床位咁...未試過20小時都瞓喺床上...
本應打算玩SKI 嘅...LAST嗰日瞓身去玩...點知...樂極生悲...嗰個MOMENT 好驚...之後再上...個心已脇...去到嗰個位就好驚...LAST 一次..應該真係唔好再上...因為膝蓋已極限了...心野嘅我...又再上...最後炒一次時..呆左坐喺度15MINS...好無助...點算...硬著頭皮迫自己落...但膝蓋已好痛到直唔到...所以又再好狠咁炒得好甘...連帽連HEADPHONE, 連鏡全飛出嚟...太斜啦...起身就滑下去...好痛...點算好..好想快快完全佢...
好在今日唔係玩SNOWBOARD. 如果唔係...死都似...
有D事...我做唔到...唯有避, 1個多月前我所講嘅情景同LEE幾日相處嘅一樣...
我係....多餘嘅感覺好厲害..
一直想...我同其他朋友嘅都可以相處到..Y 今次會咁???
接受係最好方法, 逃避係最佳選擇...
大家依然愛鍚對方.
...

FIRST TIME

第一次正式見面傾計...喜歡了...雖然無瑛太同向井理咁靚仔...但佢好有愛心^^
不過....應該無可能...因為.佢啱啱失戀, 從朋友口中, 佢好DOWN..我估佢應該好鍾意女朋友...
算吧~~
諗下算吧~~

cfm

你是最好的聆聽者...好在, 最艱辛的的日子裡, , 有你在我身邊....
今日又向你呻...了...
難道我而家嘅興趣改為 "告解 "???
 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
一次又一次...真係令人失望...明明有機會...點解???  其實滑一次雪都唔過份姐??? 今日真係火到不得了...應承了, 更改....原來唔止朋友係咁. 承認左之後會改性質再取消, 老師都係咁...
又一次証明LEE個世界係無嘢相信...

THINKING

LEE排發現...原來唔同國籍, 唔同語言, 真係好難相處!!  第一次有LEE個想法...

今日識左一個新朋友..NICE!! 佢隻狗好CUTE呀... 有個動作同ROBERT好似...我掃佢條頸時...佢同ROBERT一樣...唔會"錫"我..會"錫"其他嘢好似地下...LEE樣嘢不嬲只有ROBERT仔先知,..我唔鍾意比狗錫...ROBERT 你同佢講嗎???

近一步

發夢到英姐, 發夢到屋企...但點解唔見你??? 真係好想念你...

SEEMS LIKE

i don't know ?? i am not sure?? am i very boring? am i very lonely? am i upset?? what's going on am i??
today sherming back home...mmm...one moment, i want to cry, really want to hug her ... but deeply calm down, take a break, take a deep breath....i don't want her worry about me, and i don't know to rely on her so much...i need to grow, we can't long lastly live together....she can't take care me so much., and i am not mentally retarded woman... so.. i need to always tell myself  i grown!!!
actually tonight we just together few hours, first,she again feel me "dislike" and this point until now, not much people know what i am thinking... didn't smile not equal to dislike...but it's ok...long time no MORNING CALL this activity...haha..so hard, but enjoy... and i think this is our communication!!
this night... i haven't any upset.. maybe someone next to me....
i know, when i nth to do, to think, then i will think of the negative....
am i the friendship circle so small???
the next day , when wake up...i feel happy...long time no this feeling...maybe..just 1 call or 1 sms, let me know i am valued to living ......

最近...

喜歡了站在露台自己飲酒...
喜歡站在露台想....
喜歡這種感覺...


有一天我什麼都失去了才了解
要是照著吩咐去做就好了
這麼熱是因為誰的關係
很煩的時候　只好一個人獨處
什麼都不要說　就讓我消失
然後 Smoking the cigarette感覺 kool

I don't know GOAL
I don't know SOUL
I don't know ROLL
掉落的石頭也不錯
I don't want be a DOLL
I don't need no RALL
I don't know RULES
靠我自己的RULE可行不通

20 years old 雖然早已過去
像小孩一樣的被耍
珍愛的東西都壞了
其他什麼都不能做
什麼都聽不到
想說的事都已知道
對各種慣壞了的孩子冷眼相看
他們來去相見　談笑並行
大家都有著各自的rule
例如對沒用的男人絕不理睬
白痴話我不搭理
車我也不搭　搭了就會被當白痴
You have to smoke (CIGARETTE)
靠我自己的RULE可行不通
靠我自己的RULE無法存活
乘著香煙的煙霧
讓我小歇一番
卻仍焦躁不安　為什麼

毫無驚奇的世界
一點也不可怕
只要沒有寂寞　就不可怕

小心翼翼　看著窗外
今天更不想外出
我就是這麼想

一直往前奔跑的話
疲勞累積到突然之間
要送醫院之前
好想抽根Cigarette啊

...

我發夢唔係想見SONNIE, SHERMING, 而係要見ROBERT 仔你呀...
我求下你...
PLS.

交換

我願意用咩條件都好...去交換見你,
EVEN.... 
日日諗住你..真係好難集中精神做任何嘢....
我唔係想"想起你" 我想發夢你...比我開心一次可以嗎???
就快顛啦我
好辛苦..
原來你真係喺我心目中好重要, 比起我DADDY, 我哥哥, 我D朋友....
原來你只係UNDER我媽咪...
ROBERT 仔...
原來失去左才知重要..LEE D 日子,...成日諗起以前...我地生活....
我就快爆啦...

最後

LAST CHANCE 都無....
真係好想見下你...
PLEASE!!!

2小時

2小時大放送...
咩都講, 感覺唔應該講嘅都講左...講完唔知對方用咩眼光望我....其實我真係好自私...但...

CHANCE

拔拔, 今日你頭7, 你可唔可以嚟搵我???
我買左你鍾意食嘅餅呀...今晚一齊食吖..
我真係好想見下你...

DONT

唔好比我靜落嚟好嗎?? ?
陪下我好嗎???
好辛苦好辛苦呀....
一個人好辛苦呀...
拔拔....

MY LOVE

拔拔...
點解唔比我發夢見下你???
知唔我有幾擔心你呀??
我終於整得返我幫你影相單人照啦...真係好靚仔...真係...你記唔記得我成日叫你做男朋友仔呀???望住你相...我諗起你啱啱嚟到2A時, 身體太細粉, 可以喺鐵閘到自出自入, 幾個月後, 你仲以你仲係好細粒,自出自入, 點知....PATPAT 過唔到, KICK住左....我記得我地一齊食餅, 食芒果, 食雪條...幾溫馨...你仲記得嗎???
亞妹

WHY???

拔拔, WHERE ARE YOU?? 你去到邊?? 係咪好悶??? 黠解仲未過嚟搵我架??? 100000 個掛住你,我等你... 我收工啦, 你唔洗驚阻我返工架...亞妹

I CAN FOUND MYSELF

真係原來我個人都幾顛...突然覺得自己比SHERMING 仲顛,...我真係可以出團出到攰到....可以鍾意嘅都唔理...意見要問嘅唔比, 電話可以唔接, SMS 可以唔覆....簡直一句:: 事不關己, 不會勞心,咩說話都聽唔入耳...真係可以一句, 唔好煩我.... 攰到比人搞都應該無反抗能力....好耐無試過咁辛苦...真係唔啱我....不過....過程同回報都令我有自信, 原來我可以!!!!

ARIGATOU ROBERT

ROBERT 仔,

多謝你陪我咁多個歲月...還記得每年新年都買新衫比你..你係咪嬲我今年無買呀?? 唔好嬲我啦...唔好走, 唔好唔要我啦...你係唯一一個我對住會最舒服最真, 最唔洗用腦,...我好後悔上次回來沒有好好陪你...對唔住..你唔好拋棄我啦...我已經無人可以信, 無人可以倚靠架啦...點解喺我最迷惘嘅時侯你陪我呀???
我好掛住你呀..你可唔可以比我見多一次??一次吖...你比我發夢見下你吖....我唔驚架...我求下你吖...
多謝你呀ROBERT 仔...我好希望....你可以好好抬胎...唔好再做狗仔啦....
我愛你呀...
唯獨你是不可取締..
多謝你呀, 比左咁多年快樂時光我...
辛苦你啦...

B

SCHOOL DAY

4個日本人...好開心呀.....(不過第一次感覺有2個都係另類, 應該唔可以點FRIEND到)
但其中一個,只係識左第2日咋, 但真係無諗過可以FRIEND 成咁...由4點幾LINE到11點....真係不得了...
好似識左好耐咁...好親切 ^^
可能大家都係同年又差10幾日... NICE!

THANK YOU

4 4 6 6 講清楚... 是否成功坐左破冰船喺網走走一轉呢???
認識唔容易, 要有深度嘅維繫, 高學問嘅經營...
可能因為一次突然失去一個好鍾意嘅偶像 ....
唔想再有第2次第3次...所以真係好好好珍惜對方...
從未如此這樣激烈...
自己都被嚇一跳...
但值得嘅...^^
我要做一個高水準嘅建築師...
多謝代言人.

...

幾晚啦...個心口成日哪住哪住痛...好似有嘢壓住自己咁...
點解???
將全部事唔放在眼內看不是舒服D咩?? 但原來係好難做到嘅事...
突然好想出去走一走...
問你新年有無假...點解無架???真係好想你過嚟, 或出去第2度見...但其實都係一箱情願
最好方法係搵代替品???

BAD NEWS

無同媽咪CTC 幾日( 心情問題啦), 一CTC 就話...隔離屋馬生同天恩死左...
一個CANCER 死...但聽完唔開心係因為, 馬太而家唔想食嘢, 想放棄自己....在港22日入面, 同佢2公婆傾過計..突然...
天恩雖然唔熟.,只係細細個時玩過下,...但..."行行下街突然暈低, 搶救唔到...."
突然諗起前晚厠所出嚟見暈, 跌低左...應該是血糖問題啩....?!?!?!

突然覺得...我地真係好渺小...
所以...我地應該要ENJOY 我地唔知DEADLINE 幾時嘅生命日子...

希望由我BB睇住我大嘅馬生, 同天恩, 一路好走....another heaven enjoy your new life.

不分時間

由25號到而家...NON-STOP WHATSAPP/LINE...不分時間. 凌晨2點幾都可以收到對方SMS, 早上5點幾又可以收到SMS...凌晨3點幾MISS CALL
如果以前...我應該殺人都似...
但今次...我只知你CARE 我...但只係朋友CARE....
係因為TIMING問題 嗎???
SIGNAL已收到 ..好清晰..我同你真係TIMING 問題....
TIMING 真係重要嗎???
大家都GROWN??

爆

原來壓力忍唔住就爆...
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原來大家心入面都有一定地位.
係你令我知道朋友似火腿咁薄,亦都係你比我知原來LEE舊火腿真係好重要...
從未試個咁樣行為...崩潰一樣..
今次一役, 比我知, 我更加要珍惜你...唔可以為一D無謂事而嬲
我真係好怕你....
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今次, 比我CFM..我識到你, 係我榮幸..
雖然唔可以成日見, 應該講, 唔知幾時可以見, 但...你一句 " I CAREＵ＂. 只係3個字...原來可以令人感動到釋放所有不安, 內心深處嘅鎖被解開咁....不停喊...真係好想攬住你嚎啕大哭
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成晚無瞓..失眠....但感覺好似心情舒服了...
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기분이 좋지 않습니다

행복 어디요??
행복은 어때요??
행복을 주십시오...

now i'm crying to get myself back

傷得很重, 無法笑得自然開懷...

我們來到這世上, 不是為了受傷害

沒有目的地可去, 沒有可依靠的人...

love story

你知道 從以前開始我一直不擅長這種愛情故事　
和那些為愛心力交瘁的女主角沒完沒了的 girl talk
反覆上演著無意義的 gossip
總是讓我想逃離
now i'm grown
雖然得到了想要的東西
但代價是 I know
我卻再也得不到
你所給我的永遠和笑容
雖然我比任何人都更愛你
但選擇的這條路我依然會繼續走下去　
就算有來生 我還是繼續愛你
而我們卻再也無法在一起
Cause thas's our love story
我也會不自覺地希望
能像在那懷中想睡的孩子般
話說 就連眼淚
也不記得已經多久沒流了
但事到如今也無法改變
You know that I'm grown　
雖然得到了想要的東西
但代價是 I know
我卻放開了你所給我的
溫柔和笑容 Baby
即使注視著別人
即使和別人生活
也絕不會有忘記你的一天
即使心中仍然繼續愛著你
我們卻再也無法在一起
cuz that's our love story
雖然知道我們終究會擦肩而過
但我依然感謝 和你相遇的這個奇蹟
那些無可取代的日子
曾有的後悔 痛苦或是悲傷
總有一天 都會閃耀