hard feeling

愈嚟愈唔了解對方了..有感極度不重視嘅感覺...我是白痴嗎??? 是你隻寵物嗎?? 鍾意點就點?? 不知所謂~~~ 討厭
不重視嘅關係, 要唔要也罷...
不受尊重嘅關係, 放罷了..

thanks

好開心, 因為我依然可以令對方喊, 令對方笑,依然有存在價值 ~~~
每次嘈完之後, 破冰之後, 開心返, 真係縱使其他人安慰我都好.個心好痛...(hehe or一殺哪開心)
感恩,因為喺對方人生入面,將來有我個名存在...
好鍚我, 全銀河都知...
我真係一個好幸福嘅人...^^
所以我.......

突然

第一次上上下堂, 眼淚直流...
我totally 被攻破了...
突然想起10多年前rachel事件...我好驚再嚟一次...因為今次一定更傷....我怕受不起...
係我問題嗎?? 係我做得唔夠好嗎? 係我處理唔好嗎??係我唔識體諒人嗎?? 係我不夠細心??係我仲未成熟??定係已經被討厭????被放棄??? 好辛苦...我唔想又發生...
我可以做咩去"配合"??

only one

因為一d事, 好唔開心...突然覺得sharing對象係無咁...搵人陪, 係無嘅...究竟我在做什麼??? 有人有心無力想幫我, 我係看得出嘅..但你要我等到幾時?? delay delay 再delay..我已經習慣了嗎??或者, 我本身因為怕第3次再發生不敢再比期望朋友比較好???不!應該講,我接受到無止境的等待嗎嗎?? 倚靠好像已失去了...我應該點?? 我唔想好似好友咁...最後係討厭lee個地方...快樂還有嗎?? 11月真的可以有嗎??可以陪我嗎???

今晚同朋友出外, 我學識了收藏自己, 或者對方跟本只是表到唔表面嘅朋友圈吧...幾唔開心, 今日都收埋哂...但都幾辛苦...可能今次一個人都無講...even baby都無講...

是夜收到一個令我開心嘅人電話, "你後悔嗎??" "你想點???"好開心你仍關心我..仲問我洗唔洗做中間人...

講清楚可能係我嘅堅持...又攤哂出嚟講, 你嘅答案, 我估唔到...在你立場看, 其實你都幾可憐...在外嘅人,包括我...都覺得你好慘...我是否要轉變下呢?? 行出一步嗎??? 究竟我諗緊咩???

...

由這一分鐘開始計起　春風秋雨間
限我對你以半年時間　慢慢的心淡
付清賬單　平靜的對你熱度退減
一天一點　傷心過這一百數十晚
大概也夠我　送我來回地獄又折返人間
春天分手　秋天會習慣　苦沖開了便淡

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上左心嘅事真係放唔低, 無時無刻都想起...有D過左火咁..點算???

今日終於考左辯論了...真係好辛苦LEE 個EXAM, 為左LEE個EXAM 幾多晚無咩點瞓, 辛苦過幫朋友做PAPER WORK...

UNFORGETTABLE MOMENT...

^^ waiting for u

真係比同性戀搞到我就死....
真係好hard 嘅exam..同埋發現, 原來開學之後除左第一個禮拜無exam之外..個個禮拜都有考試. 唔係測驗..真係辛苦左..好似填鴨式咁...真係好辛苦..未試過要上網搵料...由尋日早上7點搞到今朝4點, 當然中間有做下其他事...但都唔影響我時間...真係好大壓力咁..雖然短間3,4個鐘瞓..但個腦都係我個同性戀事...真係好煩..諗到中文點寫又唔識用韓文點講, 人工繁殖?? 中文都要諗個字點寫呀...真係好suffer.

因為一個人記在心內, 唔開心左...同baby呻, 愈呻愈開心..relax左...
thanks alot!!! u are my best!!!
因為有d事不能同其他人講,所以你係最佳人選了...
又或者..我地太似了....
好突然對方會問 :"點解佢會咁講..."
聽完心有戚戚然...
不過整晚過程真係好relax...i like it
i love you!!!

i hate kli

真係未試過咁勤力...由朝早7點到而家...都係韓文韓文再韓文...
人地唔知以前我想拎獎學金...
真係好想死..好難,好煩...
升左上lvl 4 真係好似無哂d 私人時間, 睇電視又無, 行街?? 星期五啦...傾電話都唔可以傾耐...瞓教都係韓文...
苦中一點甜, 那邊箱嘅你都忙到就死....hahaha , i am mean... ^^

原來可以

一直以為自己真係要人照顧嘅人, 唔識獨自生活...同屋由十月頭先旅行到而家返香港工作, 估唔到大個月了. 初頭以為自己真係唔可以...原來我100% ok架, 同埋,都幾enjoy一個人生活, 當然唔洗諗咁多嘢係main point, 但夜晚都有少少悶. 好在而家lvl4, 真係忙到ok啦...都無咩free time 諗其他嘢...加上而家crystal 同connie 又一齊返學, 放學又一齊...夜間又同hk d fd 傾下電話, 又同baby text 下, 幾開心...同埋原來我都幾鍾意物質享受...一間千尺大屋, 一個人...真係好ENJOY!! 好鍾意獨自在家嘅感覺...寧靜嘅時間就會諗下嘢. 幾好!! 不俗不俗~~~
不過LEE排一靜就諗起旅行, 好想好想好想今次真係去到...成日諗去邊好...但其實去邊都無所謂, 因為目標名確, SAME STYLE. EVEN 去香港, 我都一定會唔理其他, SMS都唔覆, 去ENJOY OUR TRIP...一定唔悶姐, 好想好想好想介紹自己最FD嘅FD一齊飲,一齊玩. ^^ 真係好期呀~~~~

heaven and hell

因為一位朋友無理取鬧, 變相我更加run 向愛錫我嘅您...多謝你always stay my side...
朋友雖然利用就一定架啦, 但同時都係要嚟鍚同保護, 發脾氣..煩請向無謂人發吧...真係嬲...朋友在身邊不斷說calm down calm down ...因為咁..我更加覺得你對我好重要...
人係犯賤, 縱使無錯...但唔想關係每況愈下, 唯有一方say sorry...even 我唔知我點解要咁..有時諗唔通lee d 叫命運啩...
易受人影響係我charactor, 但lee part 我好堅持...even 你都係想我開心...但...只可以講, 你知我性格吧...所以只有請你繼續做我嘅聆聽者吧...
有時在想..壓力令人透不過氣, 我都好心痛...好唔開心...因為我可以做咩???我真係唔知...

crazy

after arr korea, until now still not yet have any drinks >.<
i am waiting our drinking night!!!
tonight i have dinner with sonnie, sherming , bryan, snoopy.. soju , whiskey, beer...chi sin...
i think i am not young... today ...i die.

stress

recently i feel very hard.. i got stress a lot!!!
what i do?? give up or...???
lucily, i have such a goooooood fd like u, just a topic. go travel, we are very happy and exciting... ^^
i am really looking forward our trip...any place is ok for us. just sleep and drink , no need to walk ...^^
when i think of it... all the stress will go away
thanks

용기가 나다

遲定早, 一定會攤出嚟講...
同當時人講哂...好似好左dd.. 我希望無side effect...otherwise我都唔知點算好...
多謝你send text 鼓勵我...
"try your best to convince yourself to accept all the things she did"
"make yourself happy"
"try your best and support you always"
I LOVE YOU
...
唔知我將我心情講哂之後,對方點..但最少我減輕dd 吧..
pls time goes by

i lose

原來最好嘅解決方法就係...扮無事...即係逃避???
ok, fine!!!

停一停,諗一諗...

晚晚發惡夢...
原來仲發埋開口夢...第2朝只係同我講:"你發開口夢wor...講左xxxx" 但好好的,你無問我咩事...慶幸地, 最down lee2日有你陪...真係好朋友
打左一大編essay...竟然得一句敷衍回答...我可以點??? 真係可以當無事??對方可唔可在我角度諗???
已經多次多次同自己講:" 停一停, 諗一諗, 其實事件又唔係大吖只要你唔在乎對方的話......"但..如果係可以做到對任何人,包括姊妹, 屋企人...都dont care 的話, 咁我而家咪無事..."
啊...辛苦...
係咪要比時間自己去接受一切???

韓國最好嘅心理醫生...

今日終於搵左人幫我check我嘅事了...有人share左d 舒服左d..
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是夜喺你百忙之中抽空聽我錄音, I FEEL SORRY...我知對方忙死了...
短短嘅時間終於1 5 1 10 講哂所有屈喺心入面嘅事了...你一句sammy...SORRY..之後一段嘢..我終於忍唔住嚎哭了...lee幾日真係好辛苦...我真係好辛苦...咩都無了..尊嚴都無...真係好辛苦....
每一晚凌晨時間就開始咁...真係好驚...好驚...好驚再有下次.
開心嘅0係你每一句都令我feel better...如果而家你喺我面前, 我估我一定攪住你狂喊...
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好開心你之前到今日講左咁多次"好開心可以再見我..." 原來驚我返左去唔再返嚟...聽到真係好感動...多謝你...

惡夢

真係好辛苦..其實係咪做錯咩?? lee幾日一係瞓唔到, 一係就發惡夢...放過我啦, 我就顛架啦..
收到report了...點解唔開心嘅事係都要跟住我wor...我其實無嘢好架...跟過第2個啦...我受夠啦..我應該返hk睇醫生好? skip 1 個term?? 11月返去蛇一蛇???定喺韓國睇?? 好煩...
一到夜晚就好似上身咁..好不安...真係好辛苦..又唔可以同人呻...
我就快頂唔住了...

心痛

因為一件放在心之小事而引發一句說話令人心痛的大事.., 令我流了無盡眼淚, 最後暈倒...
我還是未平靜...
心仍然很痛...